Angered

Just a gentle reminder, I’ll still be posting here until things are done in FreeTXP.

I’m feeling angry, annoyed and unappreciated! It’s really getting on my nerves because I hate to stay at home for such a long time. When they need me they ask me, if not, fuck off. I feel I did a great job in getting their website up and within a short time frame too.

How silly of me, since I have finished it, they need me no more. That is, till they have further resources for me to load it up. May be I am not matured enough to accept this first time of being ‘fired’. Yet, to a certain extent, I do understand that it’s like this. This is but a taste of the real world.

He just called me up to get back to work on 2nd March. Main purpose there is to attend a meeting. I feel like telling NO! I should be glad that he asked me to work the whole day instead of just a few hours for the meeting isn’t it?

Back at home, Dad would say,”Pok Tao Lor ah? Your company don’t want you ah?” Damned, like I’m so delighted to forced to take this shitty leave. Shut up if you got nothing nice to say.

Fuck!

Relatives? What The…

I dislike family gatherings, especially when I don’t belong to the same league.

I’m really pissed today, not sure why. It’s definitely after the dinner.

Finally mailed my supporting documents for NTU & NUS, paid the fees too. Have you done it?

Will be over-causeway for a few days, hope you guys enjoy your new year. Take care!

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you chose BY – your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka “The Romantic”) “I am unique” Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive. How to Get Along with Me Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me. Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself. Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision. Though I don’t always want to be cheered up when I’m feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little. Don’t tell me I’m too sensitive or that I’m overreacting! What I Like About Being a Four my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level my ability to establish warm connections with people admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor being unique and being seen as unique by others having aesthetic sensibilities being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me What’s Hard About Being a Four experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don’t deserve to be loved feeling guilty when I disappoint people feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me expecting too much from myself and life fearing being abandoned obsessing over resentments longing for what I don’t have Fours as Children Often have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s are very sensitive feel that they don’t fit in believe they are missing something that other people have attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc. become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents’ divorce) Fours as Parents help their children become who they really are support their children’s creativity and originality are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings are sometimes overly critical or overly protective are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You liked the test? so please don’t forget to RATE it… but remember! it had only two questions!!! you wanna know MORE? so check out, what Wikipedia says about your type… …even more you’ll find in Google or do you prefer to You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose BY Would you rather have chosen: AY (EIGHT) CY (SIX) BX (NINE) BZ (FIVE)

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Dreams Are My Reality

This happened long ago, I paste it so that maybe I (and maybe you too) can be reminded with your dreams.

Last Friday, when i was on my way to Amy’s place.

I was waiting for my bus. An elderly came towards me, touching his way with his stick. He’s visually handicapped. He sat down beside me, and said, ” Excuse me, can you let me know if Bus 966 or 15 is here? “. I replied yes.

He started to chat with me, after he did a short introduction on himself. We exchanged our names and we chatted a little.

He asked me something, “So what’s your dream?” It struck me, i didn’t have one. Well my childhood dream is to be an Astronaut, so that i can travel to space to view the stars and planets. I was too embarrassed to tell him so.

“You don’t have a dream? How can you not have one? You end up going aimlessly everyday” It is true. Of course i know what i’ll be doing daily, but where does all my doing now leads me too? That’s something that i didn’t know, i didn’t have a dream/goal to fix on.

Do you have one? Are you working towards it? How many people did these two?

Doesn’t matter, i didn’t have a dream i’m working on right now. It makes me think about, the purpose in doing what i’ve done all these while. What am i trying to acheive?

And frankly speaking, till now i still don’t have one. Come on! I don’t even have the slightest idea what am i going to do after my NS. Boy, what the fuck am i doing?

Many have told me that Army could turn a boy’s life into a man, his views, thoughts and mind would change. I supposed they meant that one gets more mature by then right? I wonder after that, will i have a dream to pursue?

Even though Space Travel right now seems impossible in Singapore, i’m sure one day i’ll be in space, looking back at home.

A blind sees his future better than me

The End.